秋雨/黑暗中的舞者

上星期天气晴好，整天暖洋洋的，甚至还有点热。下午阳光很灿烂，把衣服晒得很干，床铺也烤得热烘烘的。多希望太阳的热量一直留在被子里，到晚上热气腾腾将我包围。

现在又下起雨来，忽然就很冷，又要穿上毛毛的小灰兔浴袍才不会发抖。想到以前江南的冬天，零度以下，家里没有暖气不开空调，而且是大理石和木地板，没有地毯，每天晚上手脚冻得冰凉，完全麻木没有感觉了，早上起床之前把衣服拖到被子里焐热，然后咬紧牙关打着冷战穿衣服，一层一层在裤腰里掖好。遇上下雨就更受罪，穿雨衣的话，冰冷的雨衣贴在脸上和身上，当即就瑟瑟发抖，打伞更不可能，手麻木得握不住伞柄，单手骑自行车也危险。那种严寒都熬过来了，现在十来度怎么反而受不了呢？看来这几年在香港被温和的天气宠坏了。刚去的时候，经常心里嘲笑香港人耐不住寒耐不住热，一点点天气变化就紧张得要死，现在自己也变成惯宝宝，早已忘记冬天生冻疮，夏天长痱子的滋味了。有些安慰的是金黄的叶子掉了一地，好多还被车轮压扁压碎贴在地面上铲不走，颇有些死不瞑目的感觉。它们比我更冷吧。

终于看了《黑暗中的舞者》(Dancer in the Dark)这部电影。四年前的某天，墨墨绘声绘色给我讲了这个故事，说很好很感人，我一直记着，最近才下到观看。并不是我最喜欢的类型，中途好几次想要关掉不看，想想毕竟是部评价不错的片子，就这么半途而废不看了有点可惜。坚持看完，最喜欢的部分是歌舞《I’ve Seen It All》和小男孩高兴地骑车那场戏。看完之后，我无法从中获取某些感悟和哲思，连唏嘘都没有，应该不是我感情匮乏吧。

I've Seen It All

Written by: Björk, Sjón & Lars von Trier
Performed by: Björk & Thom Yorke

I've seen it all, I have seen the trees,
I've seen the willow leaves dancing in the breeze
I've seen a friend killed by a friend,
And lives that were over before they were spent.
I've seen what I was - I know what I'll be
I've seen it all - there is no more to see!

You haven't seen elephants, kings or Peru!
I'm happy to say I had better to do
What about China? Have you seen the Great Wall?
All walls are great, if the roof doesn't fall!
And the man you will marry? The home you will share?
To be honest, I really don't care...
You've never been to Niagara Falls?
I have seen water, its water, that's all...
The Eiffel Tower, the Empire State?
My pulse was as high on my very first date!
Your grandson's hand as he plays with your hair?
To be honest, I really don't care...

I've seen it all, I've seen the dark
I've seen the brightness in one little spark.
I've seen what I chose and I've seen what I need,
And that is enough, to want more would be greed.
I've seen what I was and I know what I'll be
I've seen it all - there is no more to see!
You've seen it all and all you have seen
You can always review on your own little screen
The light and the dark, the big and the small
Just keep in mind - you need no more at all
You've seen what you were and know what you'll be
You've seen it all - there is no more to see!